Well friends, I’m an honesty advocate so I’ll give it to you straight: I was not very yes-ful this month. Between stress and sickness and mental darkness, I sort of froze (see last Friday’s blog on disappearing). Luckily, the first week of March has proved to be vastly more productive, healthy, and positive. There was at least one thing that I did say yes to in February, and that was to submit my stuff to things that are big and scary.
I submitted to two things of this variety recently, NBC’s Late Night Writers Workshop and NYCFringe (both with very different material). I’m already pretty sure LNWW didn’t work out but that’s ok, I can always submit again next year. And getting into something like that would be cool, but it’s also not the point.
By nature it is scary so put yourself out there. And when the competition is stiff, it can feel pointless to bother. The numbers are intimidating to be sure. And every time a due date for notification passes and you don’t get a congratulatory email, that blows. It just does, whether it’s a minor suck or a major. I don’t like to lose or feel inferior. I’m super competitive and I care a whole hell of a lot about the stuff that I produce.
That’s why it’s especially important for me to keep putting myself out there. I have to get used to the rejection. In my line of work, that’s going to come often. If Fringe just isn’t feeling my comedy stageplay, that’s ok. Next year I’ll be submitting a musical which I think is pretty much the bee’s knees. And if they aren’t feeling that, I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to put it up somewhere, or maybe even film it. After all, the world can always use more quality movie-musicals.
I tried this month, at least in this particular way. I’m still building up resilience, but these little reaches are maybe just enough to justify a positive month of yes. Or at least a moderate one. It’s important to be nice to ourselves, anyway.